Hiding in Plain Sight

A woman walks into the living room one day to find her husband sitting in his chair wearing only underwear and a top hat.  "Why are you in your underwear?" she asks him.  

 "Because no one ever comes to see me,"

"Then why are you wearing a top hat?"

 "Because," he says, "someone might."  
 
Blogging seems like a useful way to get some thoughts down in a format that is easy to track over time.  It helps me see ideas objectively and connect them to others.  I like that the web provides that big city anonymity of being lost in the crowd.  It seems unlikely that my blog will be stumbled across unless through some quirky search term.  Like if someone now Googles "quirky search term." 

But as soon as I start writing, I feel the need to put the top hat on.  I find myself editing and scrapping thoughts and wondering if this or that will sound stupid, when the point is supposed to be throwing my thoughts out of my head so I can see them.  Maybe eventually this will be a forum for sharing ideas, but if I keep second guessing myself and never post anything, there will be nothing to share.  

I must concentrate on being less self-conscious.   

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